It Was Written in Blood.

Paper Towns

2012-02-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Title: Paper Towns
Author: John Green
Rating: 5/5 YAY!

Long Story Short: It's about Quentin Jacobsen going through all kinds of trouble and chaos just to find his childhood friend/neighbor Margo Roth Spiegelman with the help of his friends, Radar and Ben.
I honestly cannot tell you anything else except that little info 'cause it's such a good book that I'd hate to spoil it for you.

Why You Should Read It: Because John Green wrote it. A Nerdfighter wrote it. I find this statement enough to convince you in reading the book.

----And thus ends this Book Review----

P.S.: Kindly buy the real thing. PDF's/E-books aren't exactly better than the actual thing. Well, for me that is.

Okay.

2012-02-17T22:21:00.001+08:00

You Me At Six are in Indonesia. Performing concerts and meeting their fans. Sadness.

WHAT I WOULD DO TO BE IN INDONESIA RIGHT NOW.

YAY

2012-02-13T22:05:00.003+08:00

Interviewer: I hear you guys have plans in making another music video here in the States?
Max: Uh, yes. We're doing one for "No One Does It Better" next.

I.AM.STOKED.

This is what poor, broke fangirls do when they're not rich enough to attend concerts and get the chances to have meet and greet with their favorite artists. :(

So, be grateful.

2012-02-12T16:56:00.001+08:00

It's 4pm. Everybody else in my school must be doing their projects or something. Idk. Anyway, the signing of clearance is coming up and in order for me to be able to take the final exams is to finish every single requirement our pain-in-the-ass teachers have given us. Fuck all of this shit.
Short updates here. Shorter updates in LJ. Follow me on Twitter.

If I somehow pass out for a couple of weeks due to immense stress and anxiety, don't be surprised. Just remember, shit always happens.

*update:
I took off the "Tagboard" thingamajig. If you got something to say, kindly comment on the post. :) Thanks.

K.

2012-02-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

K.
Emotional stuff.
Feelings flowing. Stress uprising. Prom problems.

Need some relaxation. Gotta take a breather.

Sometimes

2012-02-08T21:48:00.002+08:00

People get hurt. I know it isn't right for me to just sit around and console but also isn't right to get all bitch crazy at someone who you have no control of.

So instead of getting into anyone's way. I'll just sit here. And listen. Listen to all the anger, the sadness, the "I-wish-karma-will-hit-him-harder-than-my-palm" talk. It isn't easy seeing someone from your friend's list go.

Contest

2012-02-08T21:45:00.001+08:00

I like reading books. No, not e-books. The real thing. The ones that get dusty and are fragile if paperback and even more fragile if hardbound. :))

I was going through the list of updates in my dashboard when I saw this. :D It's another giveaway BookSake is having! :D I was thinking that I wasn't gonna join since the books they were giving away weren't that interesting for me. But when I read some of the reviews, it actually proved to be pretty cool.

I hope luck is with me. With the recent earthquake and all the minor aftershocks still happening and all. *hopeful smile*

Silent Hill

2012-02-05T00:36:00.001+08:00

Movie: Silent Hill
Genre: Horror Action
Adaptation from: The Silent Hill game series created by Konami. (I just copied this info from here.

Starting the movie off with a scream isn't exactly the best idea. It wasn't scary scary. It was...surprising. It's the kind of movie that gives you mini-heart attacks every now and then. All in all I'd rate it 4 out of 5. Why? 'Cause I had trouble understanding the movie's plot and such. It was some sort of psychiatric mess. But t'was okay. ^^ Gonna go through the night without any nightmares.
K. Bye.

Aches and Pains

2012-02-02T21:42:00.001+08:00

My right jaw has been hurting. :| I've taken some pain killers and it isn't actually working. :| Not good. It's starting to swell. AWWWW SHIT.

I have lots of things to do like:
1. Get my Parish Involvement certificate signed.
2. Finish making my Action Research (sort of a mini-thesis) for our English class.
3. Start making our Documentation.
4. Finish making our PowerPoint Presentation for Religion class.
5. Prom arrangements.

Aww fuck. Busy week. Hell week.
#shithappens

When you feel butterflies in your stomach

2012-02-01T22:14:00.001+08:00

You must have swallowed some pretty awful shit.

That feeling you get when you talk to someone cute or you remember the times your ex-crush finally noticed your existence. Yes, that feeling is what I call, a butterfly attack.

Idk man. All I'm stoked about now is another sleepover we've been planning since last Friday (January 29). I DO HOPE THAT PUSHES THROUGH. I'm pretty sure I won't be in any sort of sleepover anytime soon during my college days.
#sigh.

Revisiting the past.

2012-01-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

One of the main reasons why I deleted my old LJ account was because I hated most of the posts I had typed out all throughout my freshman-sophomore years.It was pathetic, disgusting and horribly horribly wrong

And as I was revisiting the past, I remember I was fond of reading this girl's LJ. She's been through a lot. A whole lot. Her last post was written way back in 2009. And as I was visiting her page awhile ago, the first thing that came to mind was "Is she still alive?" A lot of kids commit suicide as if killing yourself was that easy. So I opened her Myspace link. And since I couldn't actually tell if she was alive or not, I figured maybe she had a Facebook account. So using my smarts and common sense, I entered facebook.com/jennariot on my address bar and voila! It worked. I'm glad to know she's still alive. :)

Back to "revisiting the past", I'm back to listening to some BMTH. Not that I ever stopped listening to them, but I had to re-download their Suicide Season album.

K. Bye

Day One

2012-01-26T22:38:00.001+08:00

Spent some bonding time at Erika's house since they wanted to fix their hair and makeup. Whilst the others beautified themselves, I was busy tweeting and going through my FB news feed.
I should've camwhored more. Not entirely my fault I'm not photogenic. GAH. I promise you more photos tomorrow. :)

K.Bye.

Stoked.

2012-01-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

Part One of Foundation Days tomorrow. :D

It figures that the only time I do enjoy the dance we're gonna be performing, we only get to dance it once. It's okay though, our costumes suck anyway.

I'll try to get a whole lot of pics for the next two days. I've just realized that I don't have much proof that I went actually became a Senior. D: Photos = Proof.

K.Bye.

Fights

2012-01-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

In every fight one of my friends get into, I try not to interfere or get in their way.
You might think I'm "unsupportive" but if I do interfere with whatever shit my friend gets into, I end up getting hate which I am not comfortable dealing with. However, I do support her and listen to her side of the story. As biased as that sounds, I cannot help but be that way 'cause as much as I want to listen to the other side of the story, the bitch who's against my friend thinks that I'm some one-sided bastard that believes whatever shit she hears along the school's halls. Which I am not.

Meh. I'm not wasting a long post in a fight I am not directly involved. I may (or may not) be indirectly involved in this fight. I couldn't give any more fucks.

It was fun while it lasted.

2012-01-23T12:24:00.000+08:00

This will be a text post. Since Vanessa hasn't uploaded the photos yet. D: Lazy ass.

Band Showdown:
It was fun. Not as lively as I expected it to be, but it was fine. I finally met my friend's potential boyfriend. He was cute. But he lives under a rock. A huge rock that seems to be detached from civilization. "Why?" you ask? because he doesn't know any band that's actually world-famous. Like One Direction AND All Time Low. I don't like both bands but they were the ones me and Sai-sai could think of at that moment. He doesn't know either band. :| In case you didn't notice, I judge people by their taste in music, not just by their looks.
Three nights, four days passed by so fast, I wish it lasted a bit longer.

Sleepover at Vanessa's:
It was also fun. Especially the part when we watched White Chicks and all we could ever remember was the line: I'm so frickin' pissed! Haha. I had trouble sleeping 'cause Vanessa wouldn't shut up and I wouldn't stop answering her questions which ended with both of us sleeping around 3am. :))

Valencia 1 of 3:
Neña went with us. T'was a shame Neil couldn't come though, he would've been of great help in bringing up the mood and all. On our arrival, we spent the afternoon waiting for Neil's confirmation if he and Joshua was coming or not. While waiting, Vane and I fell asleep while Prime, Erika and Neña surfed the net. After spending 5+ hours in Erika's room, we planned on what and where we would go and do. Vanessa wanted to go clubbing while Erika wanted to go night swimming while Neña wanted to go to the fair. After an hour or two of arguing, we spent the night stalking people on FB, gossiping, listening to Erika and Vanessa argue, watching TV, making fun of people and helping Erika make her costume. Went to sleep after that.

Valencia 2 of 3:
Woke up around 7 and planned when we would go swimming. Bought bread from a nearby bakeshop. Ate breakfast, spent some time surfing the net, packing extra shirts for after swimming and changing into swimming attires. Arrived at the public pool. Mood changed from excited to pissed off in a matter of 5 seconds. SO MANY PEOPLE. Ugh. Didn't get to have much fun though. We only got to stand beneath the "falls" and sit on the pool's edge for the duration of our stay. I got pushed off the edge, luckily I was sitting near the 7 feet part of the pool. God knows what would've happened if I got pushed off the 8-9 feet part. *shudders* Went home. Changed attires.

Valencia 3 of 3:
We talked. Surfed the web. Gossiped. Listened to some music. Ate. Basically we were hanging out pretty quietly. We couldn't talk too loud since there were people sleeping and we wouldn't want to piss off Erika's granddad. Ate dinner. Spent some time waiting at the porch. Listened to Prime when he was talking to his dad on the phone. Got a ride home. Talked about the lessons we had back in Elementary. Dropped off Prime. Talked some more. Dropped off Neña. Teased Erika. Dropped off Vanessa. Some more teasing. Arrived home.

"Welcome back!", says my bed that's missed me for so long.
Found dad in front of the PC. Greetings. Changed attires. Watched Spongebob Squarepants for a while. Texted Erika. Fell sleepy. Got ready for bed. Fell asleep.

So you see? I do have a social life. And although it doesn't involve partying and drinking alcohol you'd expect from an average sixteen-year-old, you should probably know I am in no sort the average 16-year-old. :)

I guess I'm leaving..

2012-01-20T05:08:00.002+08:00

Lol Jk. But I may or may not be able to update later, this Saturday and this Sunday. Due to the following reasons:

Friday:I'll be watching the band showdown and head over to Vanessa's for a sleepover. :)
Saturday:There'll be a General Rehearsal this Saturday for our school's Foundation Day on the 26th and 27th.
Saturday: I'll be off to Erika's house for another sleepover and town event.
Sunday: I'll probably be too tired and shit to update anything.

Here's to a great weekend. *cheers!*

I hate feeling untalented

2012-01-17T21:41:00.002+08:00

It just sucks okay? The feeling of watching someone playing any musical instrument beautifully, or hearing your favorite vocalist sing oh-so great or even watching beautiful artworks of any sort done by amateur or pro artists. :|

It just sucks. :| My friends say I'm good at drawing. Anyone can draw a couple of squiggles and lines and connect 'em all together with more squiggles and lines. I do doodles not fancy works of art that require tons of patience and concentration. D:

Enough of this self torture and shit. I have realized that my blog is boring. D: I need photos to brighten 'em up or something. But I don't want to grab photos from Flickr or any photo-sharing website, I want to upload my photos but that would require me to bring a camera everyday which apparently is something I do not and probably will never have.. :( Shit happens when you're poor.

Why oh why.

2012-01-15T22:02:00.002+08:00

As much as I do enjoy being involved in various School activities, I'd rather do the back-up, behind-the-scenes work rather than be upfront and speak in front of people.

And although I hardly believe in Christianity, it is quite ironic that I am going to be the Commentator for tomorrow's Holy Mass. I guess this is what I get for not being entirely open of my belief against Christianity.

Anyway, I could've backed out when they told me this. It's just that, the person in-charge of the mass isn't exactly easy to please nor is he easy to request. He's one of the terror teachers in school and I can honestly say that the only reason why I didn't back out from this is because he's gonna make up some lame excuse to force me to do this shit work anyway.

I hate speaking in front of people. My knees wobble, I feel faint, my palms get sweaty, my voice changes- oh god. The worst that could happen is that- I would hyperventilate. That hasn't happened yet.

I just hope all hell doesn't break loose tomorrow. :|

Lol. Such a terrible memory I have

2012-01-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

So I have sort of promised to review another book. I guess I promised this...last December? Or something like that. If you are not Filipino, you might as well read this book review. This book is written in Filipino. So...unless you're willing and eager to learn our language, you might as well wait for another book review I'll be writing soon. Anyway, here it is:

Title: Stainless Longganisa
Author: Bob Ong
Rating: 4/5. I preferred his ABNKKBSNPLAko?! than this one. But although this (Stainless Longganisa) talked more about his writing career and passion, I found his wit and funny expressions inadequate.
Long Story Short: This book talks about Bob's writing career. How he started writing and all. As usual, it's written in Filipino. And as usual, a quarter of what I've read hasn't been fully understood due to the fact that there are some words that I am unfamiliar with.
Why You Should Read It: Because it's written by Bob Ong and if you're fond of reading books written by fellow Filipinos (or if you're like me who's still giving books written by Filipinos a chance), I'd definitely recommend that you read something written by him. Although I do urge you to read his other works first in order to get whatever he is talking about in this book, his wit and sarcasm is still and will forever be imprinted in hard copy and unlike those corny pick-up lines and other shit TV Show Hosts say to each other, Bob Ong will make you laugh. And smile whilst reading his work.

--And thus ends this Book Review--

Can everything just go right for once?

2012-01-12T21:39:00.002+08:00

Too tired of fucking things up. Sick of hearing "You shouldn't have done this..or that..." Too tired to listen to all the wrong things I've done.

I don't know what to do anymore. I hate feeling like shit. I hate feeling like I'm the only person in this world who ever does the wrong thing at the wrong time. #shithappens

People piss me off

2012-01-10T21:28:00.002+08:00

We're having problems with the Yearbook since some of the people our Editor in Chief assigned are lazy prick and procrastinating bitches.

I will not say sorry for I am pissed about how DK is pressured about the section Hope's shitty and short descriptions. Personally speaking, IDGAF if their descriptions suck. Jaycebel assigned three people in said section last year and it's only right that they should've finished said task by now. If anyone from section Hope complains about how suckish, how shitty, how unfair their Yearbook descriptions are, I'd be up front and point the blame on whoever was in charge. The Yearbook staffers are pretty busy since we the HSS Days are coming up plus there's a whole lot of editing to do on the pages and shit because we don't trust the publisher to do all that work.

Ugh. I hate lazy people when the matter is important. I hate lazy people when they perfectly know that there isn't any much time left since we'll be chocked up full of activities in the following weeks. Just for once can human beings just stop being careless assholes and just give a fuck.

Oh psh.

2012-01-07T22:43:00.002+08:00

"..whether you're of another religion, or another color, or another race, we should be friends

What a bunch of bullshit people say in a shitty documentary about our place. People here aren't as "friendly" as you think they are. It's all fake. I can honestly say that there are only about 2% of the island's population that actually genuinely give a fuck about your existence. The rest wouldn't even dare talk to you in fear of language barrier or some shit like that.

Family Day thing sucked.

You've got nothing to lose.

2012-01-07T00:55:00.002+08:00

My exam results suck. They're lower than I expected. :| Which is bad. Except for my English, which I got an 81 out of 90. Fuck yes. But my Calculus, Algebra and Physics are another story. :/

There'll be some sort of "Family Day" tomorrow. I don't get why schools hold some events that end up being "compulsory" because a lot of people aren't willing to attend by choice. -.-" I mean, some of the kids in class have suckish parents (or families) and you can't just force someone to attend "Family Day" when in fact, he or she is probably gonna show up alone because his/her family is downright fucked up." God. People are stupid. =.="

A lifetime of crushes and broken dreams

2012-01-05T03:30:00.000+08:00

It saddens me that most of my schoolmates can barely grasp the concept of "respect". Sleeping in class is a form of disrespect.
No matter how boring the class is, I've never tried sleeping in it. Honestly speaking, I've almost fallen asleep once. Drowsy eyes and all but I've never actually took a nap for the whole duration of the class. That's just too much.

High School's almost over, I hope I don't get to see any more sleeping arses in college.

Oh god.

2012-01-04T21:47:00.002+08:00

My brain cannot comprehend that school is starting tomorrow. I mean, it's almost 11 o'clock and I'm still here watching EpicMealTime and feeling okay with it. :|

Honestly speaking, I'm not really that excited to see people's faces tomorrow. :| Some of my "friends" are unbearable whenever they talk too much. Or when they nag at me. Or make fun of me.

I'll let you know how the exams went. I have a strong feeling in my gut that I didn't do so well.

Life sucks.

P.S. I'll be doing a book review post on Friday. :)

Let me just say..

2012-01-03T17:02:00.004+08:00

Neil's birthday party went well. I will narrate everything that happened in bullets:

Went to the meeting place at around 4:30pm. Jason, Vernon, Buddy and Joshua was there. Erika went to buy food.
Waited for the rest to arrive. Vernon left to do stuff. Vanessa arrived.
Neil's mom came and picked us up. Stopped to buy some dinner then proceeded to their apartments.
Arrived, ate dinner. Talked. Blah blah blah.
Talked. Gossiped. Decided to go night swimming. Left roughly around 8pm
At around 10:30pm , went back to the apartment and took a bath. Gossiped. Talked.
12 midnight. Decided to buy some pizza. Vernon stayed behind. Went out and found that the store was closing. :|
Walked around and looked for open convenience stores to buy junkfood and shiz.
A couple of misfortunes later, we finally went back to the apartment with a cellophane full of junkfood. Found out that Vernon wasn't there and figured he went out to look for us.
Vernon arrived. Around 2am, we talked about ghosts, weird happenings, scary movies, horror films etc. Finished at around 3am. Lights off.
I, Neña and Joshua weren't able to sleep well due to the fact that Joshua couldn't sleep due to his runny nose and that he was a bit of a coward.
4am 'till 6am, the three of us still haven't slept due to the weird noises the rest of the gang was making. Various snores, someone was choking on his spit, weird mannerisms and hand gestures. It was funny as shit.
6am 'till 7am, slept. Not so soundly but at least things were finally quiet.
7am 'till 8am, ate breakfast. 9am 'till 12pm, some of us went back to sleep. Ate lunch at the pizza shop and went back to the room to talk and gossip.
3pm, Buddy's father arrives. We all haul ass and arrive at his house. We talked and ate some of the unfinished junkfood they bought the night before.
Neña and I went home around 4pm. Left the others at Buddy's house. Bid goodbye and end of story.

That sure was long... But we had fun. It definitely sucked that we didn't get to take any photos since nobody was bringing a camera. :| But oh well, it's best preserved in my blog and in my memory. ^^

Rain, rain don't be an ass.

2012-01-02T14:54:00.002+08:00

So it's 3pm and I have to meet Erika and the rest around 4pm. Frankly speaking, I'm not gonna be there at exactly 4pm. God knows how lazy these people are. They're fond of being 10 to 30 minutes late. And I'm sure as hell I'm not waiting for anyone. all alone. Waiting for your friends to arrive sucks. :|

I got bummed when Prime said his parent's didn't allow him to come. :/ He's like the "life of the party".

Anyway, I'm pretty sure none of you get what I'm talking about. :| So... follow me on TWITTAH, yes? :)

Happy New Year

2012-01-01T01:15:00.002+08:00

So, the new year has come in the east side of the world and I am either pissed off to say that after an hour of the formal declamation of the new year, everyone is still wide awake. Fucking hell. I can't sleep with all this noise.

Anyway, I am pretty much stoked for my friend's Birthday party tomorrow. :) We'll be heading off to the beach and stay there overnight. With a couple of friends and a couple of old-time craziness, this is one way to start the new year right. fucking stoked.

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS. #cheersto2012 I hope I don't fuck you up.

Oh okay.

2011-12-31T00:10:00.002+08:00

So the PC got fucked up. again. Which is why I didn't post anything for around 4 (?) days. Idk. I rarely post here anyway. :)

NEW YEAR is almost coming and I'm bound to create one of those New Year's Resolution things that seem to get lost after three days. Which is why I have decided to write them in my Listography Account and hopefully, fulfill at least one them. :)

I think I'll probably just fulfill the ones that require money and intense determination...

What I got.

2011-12-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

So for Christmas this year, I got:

An exact copy of a shirt I bought for myself last Christmas. Same brand. Same design. Same color. :))
I bought books for myself (using the money my grandparents gave. :3 Don't worry, I bought them gifts too.)
Shirts from my ~fans~ loljk. just my friends.
Money from my aunt.
~~Tears from my big sister and my mom~~

That's about it.. We're doing some late Christmas shopping this 27th. My dad doesn't want to buy us something that wouldn't fit us so he figured he'd give us some ca$$$h and let us buy stuff we want. He didn't want to do it before Christmas because, like me, crowds pisses the fuck out of him. Glad to know where I got that attitude. ^^,

Anyway, I'm enjoying my blogskin. It's neat. :3
K.Bye

P.S. Follow me on TWITTER!

Fa-la-di-da

2011-12-24T22:59:00.003+08:00

So, Merry Christmas!. I finished cooking/making the Spaghetti, Leche Flan (some sort of creamy custard) and Mango Float (basically Graham crackers and mango layered with cream in the middle).

Christmas is wonderful. If you can get past the annoying carolers, last-minute shoppers, bitches in the supermarket going slow as fuck with their trolleys when you're supposed to be in lightning-dash hurry, gifts that cost too much but you buy it anyways hoping for some good karma will come out off it, gifts that suck big time, money from your relatives because they don't want to make a mistake in buying you presents and the decorations you have to put up and take down in the end.
Yeah...Didn't leave much in there to love.

Anyway, it's nice to know that everyone's having a fun time during the holidays. :)

Merry Christmas!

Changing

2011-12-23T01:09:00.002+08:00

~~I'll be changing skins within this week. I'm getting bored with this one.~~
Anywaaaaaay, I'm going to buy my dad a gift for Christmas. I figured with all the drama we've been experiencing lately, he definitely needs something to be all happy about. :) I'm also glad that it'll be a fifty-fifty thing with my sister. Sharing the expense will make things easier.

The only problem is that, I probably cannot contain myself from giving the gift right away. Second problem is that, I want to put the gift when he's asleep so that when he wakes up, he'll be all surprised and shit. But he sleeps as late as I do and I'm not sure about doing so because he sometimes wakes up around 4/5 am just to pee and that would ruin things because I won't get to see his reaction. :|
I guess we have more planning to do then. :/

You ought to know that...

2011-12-21T20:50:00.002+08:00

My picked classmate was very much happy for receiving boxers for Christmas. :))
My gift however was really weird. So the girl who got my name gave me a shirt. It wasn't bad. It was just that...I already had the exact same shirt. I bought the exact shirt last year for Christmas, as a gift for myself. Now I have two shirts of the exact brand, exact design and exact color! :))))
I don't feel bad though. :) I just found it hilarious. :))
K. Bye.

Mission Accomplished.

2011-12-16T22:24:00.002+08:00

Didn't have classes today due to the fact that the weather stations announced that there was a Storm Signal Number 2. Which requires all schools in the province to cancel classes due to the huge downpour of rain. Or supposedly huge downpour.

It rained, but not as strong as I'd been hoping. It wasn't that heavy. We could've had our classes today for all I cared.

So instead of studying for this Monday's exam, Erika, Moi (read as "Moy"), Prime and I went to the Mall to look for possible gifts we could give during our class's Christmas Party. All of us were required to pick a piece of paper with one of our classmate's name written on it, then during our Christmas Party we'd give 'em the gifts and be all ladida. DK caught up with us too.

I got a male classmate for our "Exchanging Gift" thingo. And I have decided I'd give him boxers. IDC if it's embarrassing, after all it's not as if I'm giving him a cheap kind of boxers, I'll be buying it from the Bench store we have in our mall.

No regrets. Next post will be all about how it all went. ^^

To study or not to study, that is the question

2011-12-15T21:51:00.002+08:00

Exams are coming up and by virtue of my father's order, I will not be able to use the computer starting this Sunday.

Focus is all I need. And a better memory. D:

Aww fuck.

Oh.

2011-12-13T22:38:00.002+08:00

I have just realized how much I miss my Junior life. I miss the semi-close friendship I had with my group mates. :/

I just wish I had the same sort of "closeness" I had with my group mates before and my group mates now.

You never know how lucky and fortunate you are until it gets taken away from you. :(

Ugh. Mondays.

2011-12-12T21:28:00.002+08:00

As expected, I had one of those "I-really-want-to-punch-somebody-in-the-dick" days today. It started bad and ended chilly.

I just hate Mondays. I'm usually stressed and there's a lot of homework that has to be done and passed in the early hours of the day.

I wish my Mondays aren't always filled with stress and chaos. :/

Can I just say a few words?

2011-12-11T20:36:00.003+08:00

I frigging hate Mondays. They absolutely piss me off.
Here are a couple of things that also piss me off:

Homework that needs to be passed before the flag raising ceremony.
Korean pop songs. Korean music artists. (No racism.)
Slow internet connection.
My little sister when her "bitch mode" is on.
Friends who constantly lie to me. (Trust me, I know someone who's lying to my face right now.)
Expensive books.
Friends who leave friends because they have better friends.
People who borrow my stuff without returning. :|
People who claim to be pretty when in fact, they are butt ugly. (Yes, there is such a thing as too much confidence.)
Women who complain about their crappy relationships when in fact, they should be happy they have someone. or they could just dump the bloody bastard's ass.
Girls who complain and whine and moan and bitch about "Not being pretty enuff" when in fact, they are!
Girls who say, "I don't like it when girls do/wear this or do/wear that" when in fact, they're the first ones who actually do/wear this certain thing.

Pretty long list. But that's not half of what actually pisses me off. These are temper-boilers and patience-testers, but not raging hot lava-spewing anger level

For the love of pizza and bacon.

2011-12-09T12:30:00.002+08:00

I have been craving fast food. Burgers, pizza, french fries anything processed and fatty. :|

Definitely not good. I better do something productive before the weekend is over.

Our Lady Of Assumption and False Information

2011-12-08T11:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I just don't know when to shut up. I misunderstand what my friends are trying to say and I end up telling other people about it without knowing the effects it would to their friendship.

I think the world needs a huge cup of "keep-things-to-yourself" and a dash of "secrecy" with a whole bucket of "trust" to keep things ship-shape and going.

Lesson learned: If you aren't sure of what you're feeling, better stop on your tracks and rewind because remember: other people are fond of watching you crash and burn.

Anyway, we don't have classes due to a Christianity-related event with which I will not talk anything about it. Here are however, the list of things I must finish before Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday ends:

Finish my Narrative Poem project for English class.
Finish writing out descriptions about my classmates for the Yearbook.
Doodle on Sai-Sai and TJ's stuff.
Make assignment in Filipino, Social Studies, Math and Calculus.
Read Chapters 7&8 in our Physics book and answer the questions after reading.
Rest.

Another long list to finish. Whoopee. #sarcasm.

Sick.

2011-12-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

I hate getting sick.
I am now battling fever, cough and a runny nose. :|

This is one of the effects of Climate change. It rains then the sun comes out out of nowhere. It gets cold then a minute after that, it's blistering hot. =.="
I hope I get better. If there's one thing I hate, it's getting sick. :|

Not good enough.

2011-12-05T20:49:00.003+08:00

Ever had the feeling that your best wasn't good enough? I mean, you tried so hard to keep everything ship-shape, keep your grades up and all and then somebody from out of the blue just butts into the scene and says, "Is that all you can do?"

fuck you bro.

Saturday.

2011-12-03T07:14:00.005+08:00

Everything is quiet and I'm here listening to scream and metal.

Absorbing lots of inspirations for my Christmastime pastime. Which is doodling on my friends' stuff. :) Surrounding myself with pretty pictures and art. *o* And then wallowing in sorrow for not being good enough. fuckthisshit.

Things I have to do over the weekend:

Start on my narrative poem for English.
Work on doodles.
Buy Textile markers/markers.
Start on the yearbook descriptions.
Work on my Math, Calculus and Filipino assignments.
Study for Physics exam this Monday.
CHILL THE FUCK OUT.

Pretty hectic. Oh god. Will update on progress later. :)

----UPDATE!----
Things I managed to do today:
☑ Work on doodles.
☑ Buy ~~textile markers~~/markers
☑ Work on my Calculus assignment. (Filipino and Math undone. Physics book unopened)

That's about it. This is not going to end well..

Crossing my fingers (and just about everything else)

2011-12-03T06:36:00.002+08:00

This is by far one of the contests I really really really want to win. For the following reasons:
1. I've never won a giveaway before.
2. Julie Anne Peters is one of my favorite authors ever since I've bought "Between Mom and Jo". Downfall of being her fan? Getting her books are like getting a private flight to Paris. Hard and expensive!
3. I need new books to read but I'm flat broke. :(

So, by any chance of luck, I DO HOPE I WIN. :)

Will you restore me?

2011-12-02T23:29:00.002+08:00

Shit. My phone broke. :(( I'm using my dad's other phone. Problem: I'm not used to tapping on keypads. I got used to tapping on my very tiny space of touchscreen. :))

So sad for my unluckiness. And oh yea, I'm accumulating photos from the Culmination. Gonna upload them in a few day's time. :)

I hate it when my phone breaks. :|

To feel pretty is not a sin.

2011-12-01T20:47:00.002+08:00

I "acted" as Juliet for the English Month Culmination. It was both fun and embarrassing. Fun in the sense that I laughed hard at the other "characters" who struggled to stop their sweat from dripping down their faces and maintaining their pose onstage and embarrassing when Jeremy, the "Romeo", carried me for approximately 3 seconds while the auditorium screamed. I was laughing so hard that I think any photo taken during that time would definitely tell how ugly I look while laughing. Fucking hell.

Definitely worth it. :) If I find any decent photos, I'll post 'em up. :D

Before I forget:

Things to do before I die #2: Attend Vans Warped Tour, Bamboozle and Soundwave

I am sorry

2011-11-30T20:29:00.003+08:00

For boring you with the useless Morality shit I posted awhile back. I should've known better that you guys don't give a fuck about my points of view and shit.

So anyway, I'm thinking of writing my "Things to do before I die" list. One per day. Take this as a "TTDBID" Challenge. No limit whatsoever.

I'll start with:

Things to do before I die #1: Attend a YMAS/BMTH concert.

Had fun watching CVIRAA today. Finally got to visit Peñaflor. It's been 7/8 years since I left that place. And I must say, I miss it. :/ Anyway, I really really am impressed of the Elementary pupils of the Cebu province and Cebu city delegation. They are much better than ME! :| I am jealous. of their strength (and their awesome equipment and jerseys). The Floor Gymnastics were good too. Definitely not as boring as I thought it would be. Although, I did not get to see cute guys anywhere...

So let me begin with a couple of words.

2011-11-28T20:42:00.005+08:00

First thing's first: Our lack of education can cause us to be ignorant and confused on which is immoral and moral.

Henzonly (my big sister's ex-boyfriend) is one of those un-religious guys I know. Although he graduated from a Catholic school, that does not erase the fact that he has his own beliefs and whateveryoucallit.

In case you didn't know, I'm a self-proclaimed Atheist. Henzonly isn't an atheist nor agnostic. He's basically the guy without any religion.

Henzonly said something in FB about how he stuttered and fumbled with his words when his Religion teacher asked him how ethics and religion were interconnected with each other. I comment and say something about how it was an answer from someone who came from a catholic school. then the conversation ends up with me watching the video I have embedded below:

Basically, it's about Morality and it's trying to prove how the society misunderstands it. It isn't any of those Anti-christ bullshit. Nor does it go against any other form of religion either. It merely shows how the society is misinformed on the real meaning of MORALITY.

Try your luck.

2011-11-26T22:30:00.004+08:00

Deepest Darkest Secrets

I dare you.

Let's get things straight.

2011-11-18T23:26:00.002+08:00

I'm going to write in my LJ more often. Keeping things private and all. I made a superduperprivate Tumblr account. Password protected and all.

I'd rather keep my comments to myself than write it down here. Sometimes, some things aren't worth writing. But then how am I supposed to vent when my means of venting is through writing? And even in itself I am deprived of.

Which is why I have created a super-duper-mega-secret password protected Tumblr Account. LJ just isn't enough. I rant, I vent, I backbite and write them all down and post it. Friends will respect other friend's privacy.

I'm writing this down just in case you wonder why I rarely post here.

I've been falling in love with the wrong faces..

2011-11-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

My blog needs a whole lot more tweaking. :| Short update due to...laziness.

yeah, yeah

2011-11-14T21:38:00.002+08:00

I know my blog looks shitty right now, with all the mismatched colors and stuff but I swear, I'll fix it when I have time. Right now, I'm busy researching about Elizabeth Barrett Browning, a famous poet in the Victorian era, our English teacher asked for 3 pairs to volunteer to do some extra work. I, who wanted to keep my grades up, grabbed the opportunity and chose my seatmate as my partner.

All I have to do is research about this chick, talk about her life, her other works, how her "How Do I Love Thee" poem connects with her life and yadda yadda yadda. While my partner has to analyse the poem and think about what the poet meant when she wrote it, who she wrote it for and etc etc.

Come to think of it, my job's easier. It's just in the matter on how I carefully choose the facts everybody else in the class needs to know. :)

Shit bro.

2011-11-13T11:37:00.002+08:00

Camping! :D I am very STOKED. it's going to be on the 24th and 25th of November. YESSSSSSSS. What's even better? I wont get to play any games! No sarcasm there. You see, I hate games that require you to get humiliated whilst playing. :| I'm not as thick skinned as you think I am.

Due to the immense five point decrease in my grades on two certain classes, I have decided not to enter in the Regional's Press Conference to be held in Dumaguete. I know, I know, it's a shame but I'm already far behind especially in Calculus and Algebra and I can't take a risk now that the third periodical exam is on December which is two weeks after the PressCon.

I can see the venom in your eyes

2011-11-09T21:59:00.002+08:00

First things first:
I respect those who respect me. Any form of disrespect written here is probably the person's fault for losing my respect.

Honestly speaking,
I am an Atheist. I don't believe in "God" or just about any other form of deity. But that does not mean I shouldn't respect everyone who do believe in a god.

I go to a Catholic school. I attend and join masses due to the fact that this is the only way I can show my respect to the religion that has been shoved down my throat.

I don't feel the need to announce to the whole student body about my atheism. They wouldn't give a fuck. I'd be wasting my breath and my time.

I celebrate Christmas for the hell of it. I may not celebrate Ramadan or Hannukah, but it's been part of our "tradition" to celebrate such occasion. Wouldn't you do the same if everybody else was doing it too? WOULDN'T YOU FEEL LEFT OUT IF YOU DIDN'T?

Nobody likes a killjoy. And nobody certainly wants to feel left out.

I don't actually "pray". I may kneel down, I may attend masses, I may make the sign of the cross once in a while. Not because I WANT TO but because I've gotten used to. Growing up with Christianity shoved down your throat as early as age five isn't exactly something you like. Especially when your parents aren't the "preachy-pious" type.

I don't go to Mass every Sunday. This has started way back in 2nd Grade. After our First Holy Communion. Main reason? My mom wouldn't wake the fuck up. She'd say lots of excuses. My dad hates priests. 'nuff said.

The only reason why I go to church nowadays is because it is a requirement for our Religion class. We have to "serve" in our respective Parish or "Church".

to be continued...

So tell me, where will I be in the near future?

2011-11-02T18:09:00.006+08:00

It definitely has been a long time since I've "interacted" with any of my readers. (As if I do have any readers...) So, I know how lazy y'all are. So, I've set up a little Formspring widget in this post. I won't be updating for a couple of days (or weeks for that matter) If I get any response from any of you, I'll most probably put up another Formspring widget in my sidebar. :) If I don't get any response, then maybe I'll just set this blog to private. To avoid any awkward introductions I have a couple of questions I have for you to answer:

1. Complete this statement: Hi! My name is _______. You can call me _____ :D
2. Do you enjoy reading my blog? :))
3. Give me FIVE awesome bands/artist you listen to (plus the title of your favorite song from each band) :D
4. Write your Tumblr/Blogger/LiveJournal/Formspring URL. :D I'll check you out and maybe (by godly acts) I'll be your (best) friend! :D

http://www.formspring.me/robomonster

Tears.

2011-11-01T17:10:00.002+08:00

I just learned that Dan Flint's dad, Dave Flint, died sometime after YMAS released their Hold Me Down album. (It was around 2010, mind you. That's how late I am with the news...)

I legitimately cried while I was watching the video. To see how much the whole YMAS family affected by Dave's death is...touching. :'(

Confession No. 31: There is nothing more sad than seeing a grown man cry.

And now I crave for some more.

2011-10-30T18:23:00.003+08:00

Bakerella. She's one of those bakers I absolutely adore. She's...perfect! She's got her own book, she has this wild imagination which she uses on her world famous cake pops and just about everything else.

Even her photos are too good to be true. *o*

Confession No. 28: I like sweet food. But not as much as spicy and sour food. ^^
Confession No. 29: I like road trips.
Confession No. 30: I love to cook. I'd also love to try baking. :)

Not winning.

2011-10-29T07:08:00.003+08:00

Yeah so...the debate didn't go that well.
Round 1- 4th place. -.-"
Round 2 - 1st place! :)
Round 3 - Idk what our ranking was since we went home early AND SINCE THE ADJ (the one in-charge of the last round) TOLD US THAT SHE'LL BE TELLING THE RANKINGS TODAY. -.-" Only to find out that they told the rankings yesterday, minutes after we left.

Good news? Team B made it to the semi-finals! :D I'm in Team A.. But it was fun though. Saw new faces and shiz. ^^

Confession Number 25: I don't really get too bummed when I lose with a teammate. :)
Confession Number 26: I hate compulsory events.
Confession Number 27: ...I like post-hardcore music.

"Said scenario is inevitable"

2011-10-27T05:24:00.003+08:00

"Your death is inevitable; just like everyone else's. I for one, wouldn't know how, why or when but for sure, I wouldn't pass up on the chance to see you suffer for the very last time."

Sounds harsh, yes? Because that's just it. I am looking forward to the utterly demise of my enemies. If they managed to live whilst putting bullshit on my back, then it's my turn to see how Karma works.

This is bad energy. Death, hate and all. But if it's one thing I'm trying to work myself into is- getting so pissed off that my brain wants to prove everybody wrong. When I'm angry, I win arguments. When I'm not angry, I often laugh at either the beginning or the middle- which isn't something I'd want to do during an Inter-School Debate.

...
The Debate's on Friday. Wish me luck. ü

*Confessions will resume sometime this week. I am utterly sorry for the delay. There has been a wide change of events (I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO BE BORED THE WHOLE MONTH). Stay tuned though. ;)

Oh, okay.

2011-10-24T18:37:00.002+08:00

So I'm part of the school's debate team yet again. And as much as I do enjoy arguing with other people. I feel a tremendous amount of pressure upon me. Why? It's because I've had experience with debate already and my teacher/adviser expects me to win this. (or at least, make it to semi-finals.) -.-"

If it's one thing I hate, it's pressure. Ugh. But, I am stoked for the debate. ^o^

Confession Number 24:. You CAN'T fool me easily. Even though how sickeningly sweet or romantic your experiences might be, and how much I act as though I could relate to the giddy feeling you had while it happened; don't forget that I'm a skeptic too. No bullshit is going to enter my brain and make me think it's a fact.

Going Bovine

2011-10-23T17:52:00.008+08:00

So I borrowed this book from Erika. It was incredibly funny. Not funny "weird"; funny "ha-ha" actually. Although it does tackle about death and such, it isn't gory and bloody unlike Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk (which is what I'm reading right now).

I really should stop watching tour videos/tour diaries of my favorite bands. It makes me feel even more depressed by the fact that I am deprived of the fun and glory of watching my "idols" playing the songs that have helped me get through all the shit and stuff. :|

Oh god, why do you do this to me?

Confession Number 23: I hate living in the Philippines. I'd rather be in Australia. At least they have some wicked festival where awesome bands are more than willing to play. :|

Reviews and Articles

2011-10-22T22:27:00.002+08:00

So I just finished editing and correcting some book reviews, feature articles and gadget reviews for our school paper's first semester issue. :) STOKED!

What sucks though is that, I'm kind of wondering whether these people actually wrote the articles or copied them off the net. I mean, the English is beyond exceptional. But, we're running late on production and by all means, we want everything sent off to the press to get things printed and over. :)

Confession Number 22: My Grammar Nazi-ness has been put to use through being the school's Feature Editor. I like being in charge of something.

Not a day of rest has been given to this poor soul's body

2011-10-21T20:11:00.002+08:00

For the past three weeks I've been busy with the following stuff:
1. City Olympics. ✓
2. City Division Press Conference. ✓
3. UPKad-Bol (Not yet)

The third one is going to be celebrated next week. Next week which means, I'll probably miss another couple of classes just so I can get ready for the annual Debate. -.- I'm pretty sure I'll be part of it since I joined last year, and I know for a fact that if it's one thing teachers look for from a student it's experience. I'm pretty sure they wouldn't send a newbie to something that's an Inter-school event. That would be humiliating.

Confession Number 20: Certain people piss me off for no apparent reason. Their dire existence just infuriates me. Ugh.
Confession Number 21: I tend to use big words a lot. They make me sound fancy and educated. Although sometimes, I do end up wishing that the rest of the world was 10% smarter. (or had better attention span.)

SHIT BRO

2011-10-19T21:19:00.002+08:00

THIS DAY WAS MADE COMPLETE DUE TO THE FOLLOWING REASON:
1. I saw the cute guy I saw during the Regional Press Conference last year! HE WAS SO FRIGGING CUTE. :))))))))))))))))

When I saw him in the cafeteria, a big ass stupid smile crept across my face and I akjdfsjdfjdkjd. Oh god. I swear, I looked stupid. -.-"

---*snaps back to reality*---

Confession No. 19: You know the feeling when you see your crush? When you start feeling all smiley and giddy and you get those stupid butterflies inside your stomach, and all you could do is just jump around and act as if it was the happiest moment of your life? Yeah, I don't get enough of that feeling which is why I overreact whenever it happens. ^^

I love

2011-10-18T05:07:00.003+08:00

Back stage videos.
Behind-the-scenes shoots.
Documented photo sessions.
Tour videos.
Tour diaries.
Documented studio recordings.

I like watching the preparations people had to go through in making a music video worthwhile. I also like seeing my favorite bands (certain band members actually) get tired and be more like real human beings. You know, like us who get pressured, stressed and TIRED a lot. ^^

Confession No.'s 16-18:
16. I like playing softball. But I truly am not the competitive type.
17. I'd prefer reading a book under a shady tree whilst lying in a hammock than go shopping.
18. I don't like the "know-it-all" type. Especially when somebody tries to prove me wrong.

My test scores aren't going well... Fuck.

Shit bro.

2011-10-15T21:46:00.003+08:00

Okay, first thing's first: It's my birthday today. Yay.
Not exactly the best birthday I've ever had, but not the worst either.

We lost during the City Olympics.. We placed 4th. Fucking 4th. -.-"
First game was Holy Spirit School (our school) vs. University of Bohol (a team that's been playing since god knows when...) score? 8-9! Close fight, I know.
Second game was HSS vs. Holy Name University (our "sister school") score? 14-19. Eh. *shrugs shoulders* At least I've finally tried joining the City Olympics. ^^

You know what? I'm glad my dad did this for us. Even though it's been pretty tough for us these past few months, he still had the energy (not to mention the money) to spend a little something-something for us. :)
*I owe you guys five facts. Just click on the "read more" below!

1. I love to cook. Unbelievable, yes?
2. I want to learn how to bake. ^^
3. I've always wanted to try being a cashier. Not just play-cashier, the real deal!
4. I suck in math. Absolutely hate math.
5. I HATE SEWING. Or just about anything that involves stitching, needles and seams and UUUUUUUUUGH.

So sorry for the super duper late update. ^^

Dimwitted Faggot

2011-10-10T17:54:00.002+08:00

Confession Number 8: I'd rather sleep in a room filled with noise than a completely quiet room. It creeps me out.

Confession Number 9: I prefer Rock n' Roll than Mellow or Blues. There's nothing "catchy" in a Blues song.

Confession Number 10: I absolutely hate sing-along's or KARAOKE'S. I truly despise the person who had invented such device that allows bad singers to sing with confidence. -.-

Fuckity Dipple Doo

2011-10-06T21:27:00.002+08:00

A day late. -.-

Confession Number 5: I'm not as thick-skinned as you think I am.

Confession Number 6: I've always dreamed of becoming a Cashier when I was young. :>

SUCCESS.

2011-10-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

Although I wished that we went home a bit later than usual, I still had fun. I didn't take ENOUGH pictures though.. :/ Shame. If you want to see 'em, I've uploaded them on my G+ account. ^^ Like I said before, search "Zena Paige", then click "Follow" :D

Confession Number 4: One of my must-haves during trips is my earphones. :) I CANNOT BE COMPLETE WITHOUT THEM.

:) STOKED

2011-10-03T21:17:00.002+08:00

Field trip tomorrow. :)

Confession Number 3: I have an obsession of books.

I like reading books okay? :3 I'm a bookworm, and proud of it. :D And what's weird is that, I simply cannot be contented with E-Books. In fact, I haven't tried reading a single E-Book. I always have to find a way to get the real thing. You see, holding a book is far different from holding your phone. :) I treasure the real stuff.

Go throw your diamonds in the sky

2011-10-02T14:35:00.002+08:00

And we'll stay young forever.
-I Haunt Wizards Remix of BMTH'S Diamonds Aren't Forever.

Confession Number Two: I like spicy, sour and salty food. I'm not much of a sweet tooth. :3

Short update due to an unfinished overdue article which has to be done before our Ed-In-Chief kills me. :))

Fuck.

2011-10-02T10:56:00.004+08:00

Fuck.
I forgot to post one confession yesterday. :))
Anyway, here it is:

Confession Number One: I am scared of flying cockroaches.

Yep, you read it right. I am scared of flying cockroaches. Although I do get freaked out by normal creepy crawling cockroaches, a simple step on their backs or a bit of Insect Killer kills 'em right off. Those flying piece-of-shits scare the crap out of me. IDK why. -.-" UGH.

Challenge Made

2011-09-30T23:07:00.003+08:00

For the entire month of October, I'll be posting at least one confession. It could be about anything. From personal shit to random, over-the-top facts. :)

I was planning to do one of those 30 Day Challenges but I'm too lazy to look for one. :)) I'll start this October first. :D STAY TUNED FAGGOTS.

And oh yea, it was Camille's birthday today. :3 We ate at her house for dinner and stuff. :) I guess that's it.

To tell you honestly

2011-09-28T04:18:00.002+08:00

8. I hate Physics. Not one discussion in Physics have I ever been truly amazed. I know they all think it's supposed to be "cool" or "interesting" but REALITY CHECK, most of the serious things in life are BORING.

9. I know how everybody thinks nobody reads their blog and all but seriously, if you do read someone else's blog, comment on their post,write on their tagboard, DO SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOUR EXISTENCE USEFUL. The painful fact of the matter is that, I've been reading lots of blogs ever since my freshman year and day by day do they suddenly go away. They either transfer from Blogger to Tumblr or worse- never come back at all. If they had someone to talk to, someone that genuinely gives a shit about what they rant and write, then maybe that would make them EAGER to post something new everyday. People complain and tell other bloggers to update when in fact said bloggers are either a.)too busy to update or b.) HAVE NOTHING TO TELL YOU. Never pressure or piss anyone off just because you want them to update their blog. If you like reading their blog so much, WHY DON'T YOU COMMENT ON ONE OF THEIR POSTS TO JUSTIFY YOUR EXISTENCE.

10. Boobies. I have truly noticed that I have mentioned the term "boobies" almost 10-15 times per day. Pretty unusual. Heh. Boobies..

Well, I was busy

2011-09-25T16:54:00.004+08:00

What I did yesterday:
1. Went to school for English Enrichment Class. Around 9 am.
2. Went to Jollibee for lunch.
3. Went to Isabella's bakeshop to buy bread for the poor. (No sarcasm there.)
4. Went to the Plaza to look for poor people.
5. Decided to go to the Police Station to interview some Police Officers for our Physics project.
6. Went back to the Plaza to give the bread to the poor.
7. Went to McDonalds for some munch.
8. Went to Joanalyn's house to get Erika's iPhone back (DK had it while we were in Plaza and forgot to return it) and to celebrate her 40th day.
9. Went to Joanalyn's place in the cemetery. Talked, giggled, joked around with her. :)
10. Went home before 5 pm. I think it was 4:30-ish when I arrived home. :)

I was pretty busy and productive. Or somewhat productive. Anyway, I have awesome news for you:

I have a Google + Account! :) Just type in "Zena Paige". Hit "Follow". And BOOM!, instant web buddy. :))

To tell you honestly..

2011-09-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

6. There are people that annoy the fuck out of me. Their mere existence pisses me off. I don't know why but every time I see a certain friend of mine, my blood rises and I feel as though I might explode.

7. I hate my school.

To tell you honestly..

2011-09-21T20:44:00.003+08:00

I deleted my first online journal. Remember the existence of my "ihartmonsters" Livejournal account? The one I kept linking my old archived posts to? I deleted it. Why? Because I made that journal when I was a freshman. I kept using it 'till my Sophomore year. Left it alone during my Junior year and last April, when I had the time to reread my old posts, I realized how overly dramatic I was. How pathetic I was in life. It was sickening. It was humiliating. The fact that some of my friends read that journal was embarrassing. I then decided to delete the account and make a new one.

I made a new one because I had this thought that if I kept the journal and soon after I get bored of updating it and decide to reread my archived/old posts then I'd see how pathetic I was. If it's one thing I hate, it's being pathetic.

I hate my Calculus teacher. Her teaching ability is spot on. There's nothing wrong with her teaching. It's her. As a human being, she is immune to the word "tact." She is the most tactless bitch you could ever meet. She has this way of making you feel guilty and angry at yourself at the same time. I'm not going to wish for her to fall flat in the face. Nor am I going to wish for her to drop dead. She's giving birth next month, I guess that kind of pain will make her suffer enough already.

I have no interest in graduating High School. It's not like I enjoy High School. It's just that the shit I've been through, and still going through is pretty hard on me and I just...want it to end.

My friends may know what I'm going through but they're not actually doing anything to help me with it. Asking for help is useless. They haven't been through this before. I don't want their pity either. To pity someone is the same as you want to help them but you don't know how to. And that's exactly what I hate. The fact that they're so willing (well, not really..) to help that they don't even know how to.

Meh..

2011-09-20T21:20:00.002+08:00

It's either I'm depressed or I just can't seem to get a grip on school.
I can't seem to focus on shiz. I find myself falling asleep during Physics class, daydream during the most boring lectures, stare into space during free period and worst of all- talk to my seatmate during Math. Fuck.

You see, talking during math class is one of the seven things you should never do in school. It's like a rule that you should never break. Break it and you'll regret it.

I don't know why I can't seem to focus.
It's not about a certain guy either. It has nothing to do with my crush/crushes.
One thing's for sure:
Problems are overwhelming. They can suffocate you in the weirdest, most horrible way.

A couple of bruises later..

2011-09-18T21:42:00.002+08:00

I'm doing fine.
Well actually my knees are. I still can't bend my middle finger without feeling a bit of pain. D:

The thing is that I hate it when your school holds an awesome "mini festival" then after it all ends, everything goes back to the way it was. Boring and Dull.

They make it all seem as if it happened then ZAP! it ended. JUST LIKE THAT.
You see, I hate normal, boring, mundane days. Days filled with nothing but homework, quizzes and lessons.
One the upside, at least I can hang out with my friends and suffer together. But then again, they have different problems. Ugh.

We won! :D

2011-09-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

Fuck yes.
But I must say, it took a lot out of me.
Body parts which have been damaged due to game:

Middle finger in right hand (due to softball ball)
Some wounds on my right elbow (due to a minor sliding accident during the game)
3 bruises each on both knees (due to my position as a catcher)
itchy inner thigh (due to sand that got into my butt whilst sliding for a point/score)

It may not seem much but it hurts. Fucking hell it all hurts.:|

Oh yeah, I was chosen as the Softball's MVP. Wasn't expecting it though. I thought it would have been Erika or Jeanne or Kate or Mix. Bad part was that, when the host called me up he pronounced my name wrong. :/ It was embarrassing. -.-"

Last Day :(

2011-09-16T05:14:00.003+08:00

It's the last day of our Intramurals.
We have a championship game ladies and gents. :) *bows down whilst saying thanks for the wonderful round of applause*
Wish me luck. ;D

I do enjoy winning

2011-09-14T21:06:00.002+08:00

Family Faith won against Family Charity :)

We'll be competing against Family Hope tomorrow. :D Stoked. Fucking stoked.

In case you forgot what we're competing against- it's Softball. :) It's kinda like Baseball, only for girls.. :D

-this has been a short update-

Change

2011-09-11T21:41:00.002+08:00

Endless possibilities.
Lots of techniques, methods and how-to's.
All I need is the guts to do it.
I hate being a coward.

Rough week.

2011-09-10T19:27:00.002+08:00

Rough week.
'Nuff said.

Somebody press fast forward so I can skip this shit.

Remember?

2011-09-03T23:57:00.003+08:00

Remember the time when I told you guys about the time my family went to Dumaguete? Since I have nothing to do, I guess I'm going to upload the photos I meant to upload four days ago. :)
I'm being lazy, which is why I made a collage. (Actually, we didn't take that much photos and I figured making a collage is way better than showing you guys a couple of boring photos. ☺ )

-ttfn ;)-

Busy busy busy

2011-09-01T21:51:00.004+08:00

I'll be quite busy this next few weeks due to the following reasons:

I have to send my College Application Form for Silliman University
I have to write an essay for this contest our English teacher told us to participate in.
I have to make sure that the rest of our Softball team members are ready for the upcoming Intramurals. D: FYI: THEY SUCK. Which quickly translates to: enforce harsh punishments in order to achieve better outcome.
I have to read at least one novel per week. (It's for our English class.)

Shit bro.
I guess this means I'll be in a mini-hiatus. D:
I know I promised/said that I should update more but I have to make sure that I can get into my favorite university so that my college days wouldn't be so shitty. :) Sorry though (I know how much you love reading my blog. LOL JK)

Back home.

2011-08-30T20:58:00.002+08:00

Okay fuck it.
I was uploading the photos we took while we were in Dumaguete and then BOOM! Blogger has suddenly stopped uploading and says quite frankly: "Bad Request; Error 404".
It's almost 10pm. I can't be arsed to do it all over again. I'm tired. I have to go to school tomorrow. Fuck.
I promise to upload photos tomorrow.

Why does a RAVEN likes a Writing Desk?

2011-08-30T19:11:00.001+08:00

If you're quoting the Mad Hatter, then you're doing a disastrous job at it.
He said, "Why is a raven like a writing desk?"
You have committed a grammatical error to his sophisticated statement.

Annoy me. I dare you.

I absolutely hate goodbyes

2011-08-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

Our class adviser just told us that she's going to be leaving and that this August 31st will be her last day in school. :|

Last year, I prayed my heart out that I would end up in her section. Not only because she's the Social Studies teacher but also because she's one of those "cool teachers". She's also childish which makes the class more fun and smiley.

A rumor started spreading yesterday that she was leaving, we didn't believe it. It was unbelievable. It's only the 3rd month of the new school year and our class adviser is leaving us. That shit is not supposed to happen.

Homeroom today was depressing. Everybody was crying. Mrs. Melanee (our class adviser and Social Studies teacher) had trouble telling us the bad news since she always feels like vomiting whenever she feels nervous and all. Tears fell. Sniffles were heard. Audible sobs made crying harder to stop.

First my family starts having problems.
Then my friend dies.
Then my favorite teacher leaves.

This shit is not supposed to be happening.

SATURDAY!

2011-08-22T21:17:00.002+08:00

In case you didn't know, this week is Silliman University's "Founder's Week". It's that time of year where they celebrate the founding of their beloved University. Everyone is invited. Even outsiders.

My dad told me to search for Inns, B&B's, Hotels and Pension Houses that were located in Dumaguete City. Possible places we could stay this Saturday and Sunday. Sadly, every place we called was fully booked for the entire week. So, we had to tell my big sister if she could find a place for us to stay in. Luckily, she called my dad up this morning and told us she found a place. :)

So, we're going to Dumaguete this SATURDAY. Fucking stoked. :) It's nothing like Disneyland or Manila. But I'm planning to school there next year you see, and I'd like to be familiar with the surroundings despite the little amount of time I have.

My contact lenses are starting to create a bit of pain.. I'm kinda worried since I saw a show that showed that this chick had worms growing in the inside of her eye due to the shabby and dirty condition of her contact lenses. Sometimes, I worry if my contact lenses aren't clean enough.. Ohgod.

Oh goodie.

2011-08-21T18:40:00.003+08:00

Thank god for sites that allow you to download albums off the internet. I can't really be arsed to download torrents, it's not because I don't know how to but it's because I'd rather download from sites like Mediafire or Megaupload rather than download torrents that download the album.

Hardcore, scream and heavy covers of pop songs have been made by lots of artists. Although not all covers are worth hearing there are some that do stand out and are actually better than the original song. :)

Here are Youtube links to various covers of pop songs. All links open to new tabs. I must warn you though, some of these covers are done by artists who "scream" their lyrics instead of the usual singing and ladida. If you don't fancy "scream" music or screamo or anything metal for that matter, you are better off listening to something else. :)

:) I'm thinking of doing another one of those 30-day-challenges. :D

Guess what, another game over

2011-08-19T21:56:00.002+08:00

I like it when old bands create new music. :) It's like they die out then resurrect with a BANG!.

Bands that I had in mind:

Simple Plan
Bring Me The Horizon
Blink 182
You Me At Six
Fall Out Boy

I could write down a whole lot more but...most of the bands usually stay on track. They don't change and don't do shit that "excites" me. These bands changed from the genre they originally started performing, they either changed to a much more "heavy" music or "lighter" version of their previous genre. Either way, they still rock. :)

I'm going to send my final goodbye to Joan tomorrow. She's going to be buried. Which means, I can't ever see her anymore. I'll miss her more though. There'll be nothing but slabs of cement that'll set us apart. I hate goodbyes.

I bid you farewell.

2011-08-13T18:14:00.002+08:00

Just so you don't get confused, my name's Zena. Okay? The girl beside me, Joan just died of Leukemia (Stage One) last Friday, 12th of August. Her relatives said that she died around 11:10 am.

Remember when I told you that we were going to have our Feast day? On that same day that we had our feast day, she died. The program we were supposed to have in the afternoon was cancelled. We (the sensitive ones) offered a tribute for her. We spent two hours looking through her Facebook photos, listening to her favorite songs, praying for her, reminiscing when she was still with us.

it's the first time I've ever lost a friend. We weren't that close but still.. she was my classmate last year. She wasn't someone anyone would expect to have Leukemia. I just... I can't accept the fact that she's gone.

Things are still sinking in. Every time I look at photos of her, my gut cringes. I still think she's alive. I still believe she is. But that one second, when reality starts to lodge the information of her death, I can't... I can't accept it.

My heart cannot accept the fact that she's gone. My mind goes back to the memory I had when I went to her wake held yesterday. I can't be arsed to cry anymore. She wouldn't want that. It breaks my heart to know she's gone ahead of us. There are more deserving people.

Joanalyn,BJo,Bhyjo,Joan,"Babag"
We love you. I don't know how you thought that nobody ever did. We do. I have lots of regrets regarding the situation. I just... I just wish I did something to help you. I know we talked a lot but... it was all nonsense. Nothing substantial that could ever make you remember me.
Have you forgotten me?
Did you think of your friends when you were dying?
What was going through your head when you were dying?
Were we in it?
Was I in it?

You're in a better place now. I know. I just hope you made your life worthwhile when you were still here. Even I know God wouldn't take you when the time hasn't come yet.

Shit.

2011-08-11T20:47:00.002+08:00
My friend, Joanalyn, has Leukemia (Stage One). She badly needs help with the expenses. I've asked donations from lots of people. She can't leave unless they pay their debts in the hospital.

She needs help guys. I can't ask donations from all of you. So I guess the best you could do for her is to pray for her to get well soon.

She told us that if she doesn't get any better within this week, she's going to have to undergo chemotherapy next week. :/

Pain

2011-08-09T19:51:00.002+08:00
So I got my contact lenses today. The optometrist had to teach me how to put it on, take it off and stuff like that. I fucking swear it was hard to put it on and take it off. My blinking reflexes were going haywire. I had to hold my upper lashes and pull down my lower lid just so I could put my lenses in correctly. It took me ten minutes. Five minutes per eye. LOL.

The doctor says the lenses I got were "breathable" which means it's okay if I won't take 'em off before sleeping, but he advised me to take 'em off so that I could get used to the ~~pain~~ feeling of wearing them. OHGOD.

Things I'll be doing this week..

2011-08-06T23:34:00.004+08:00
On the...

8th: We'll be receiving our test results. Fucking hell. Definitely not excited to see my scores in Physics and Algebra.
9th: At around 4:20 pm, we're going to have a lecture in the school's Auditorium on the things we should and shouldn't do during our class's Immersion. By "Immersion" I mean, we're going to spend some time with the poorest families we have in our vicinity. It's for our patron saint, Saint Maximillian Kolbe. The teacher divided us into ten groups. Each group would contain 4-5 persons. Then each of the groups would be assigned to their "Adopted Family".

!Will be getting my contact lenses.
10th: Our class is going to immerse with our adopted families. Get to know them. Hopefully, not piss 'em off. IDK what to expect really.
11th: Class resumes.
12th: Feastday! A mass would be held in our nearby parish. Gonna hand out grocery goodies to our Adopted Families. Give 'em snacks too. :3 Then a program in our Auditorium.

I'm thinking of giving out some of my old clothes. Hopefully, there's going to be a girl in our group's Adopted Family. I don't really know what to do with my old clothes. Throwing them away would be useless. Burning them is shameful too. So I guess donating them is the best choice. :3

And oh yeah, I got fitted for Contact Lenses today. :D I'm going to wear them for our school's upcoming Intramurals since my glasses keep sliding off my nose every time I get sweaty. Since I know how fucking awful I'd look in colored lenses, I opted for the transparent ones. Besides, lenses are supposed to help me see things better, looks are never a priority to me.

I'll be getting them this TUESDAY! Stoked.

Exams Are OVER

2011-08-05T17:36:00.002+08:00
As expected, Physics and Algebra was pretty hard. :|

I don't think I'll get an A for this semester.. A B+ maybe.. Fuck it, I guess I'll just have to wait for the results this Monday.

Things I'm expecting to happen:

Fail Physics Class.
Fail Algebra.
Get a low score in Filipino.
Get yelled at by father.
Muscle cramps.
Fail. Fail. Fail.

I can't possibly be arsed to think of my future positively.

It's All Good

2011-07-31T17:53:00.003+08:00
I downloaded BMTH's "There Is A Hell Believe Me I've Seen It, There Is A Heaven Let's Keep It A Secret" Album half an hour ago. It's A+.

I like them a lot more now than before. I can finally understand what Oli is screaming without reading lyrics from youtube vids and online lyric sites. :D

Today went...okay. Except for the part where we went to the mall and a whole fucking lot of people were there too. In case you didn't know, today was/is the Sandugo Festival. And around 2pm, the Street Dancing activity was done and so the people who watched it went straight to the mall. I mean, they weren't buying anything. They were just there. Standing 'round, looking stupid and shit. -_____-

I have respect for those who come from towns and all but that doesn't mean they could all just start looking at me thinking they're hot shit. Ugh.

I don't have a fear of crowds. I just don't like being/seeing one. It makes the place look small. I like big open spaces. Being crammed and pushed from one side to another is not fun.

And oh yea, I'll probably be on hiatus for a week or so... exams are this week and I need to get my grades up since I haven't been doing well in activities and quizzes. Ugh. I hate exams.

If you were going to get a tattoo, what tattoo would you get?

2011-07-31T17:03:00.001+08:00

I'm going to get a peace sign done on my right wrist once I hit 18. Or until my dad allows me to. :D
Annoy me. I dare you.

Grammar Nazi

2011-07-30T21:57:00.002+08:00
Maybe I've been paying too much attention in English class.

During Club time last Thursday, we were told to proofread some articles our fellow club-mates made. I must say, my inner Grammar Nazi took over. I read a lot of grammar errors, typo errors and a whole lot of misuse of the tenses of verbs. There was this certain article, it was about the Junior's feastday earlier this month, it was horrible. It was too long, there were a lot of misused words, grammar errors- in short, it was as a disaster.

... I don't mean to sound mean buuuuut, for chrissakes, paying attention to your English teacher will.not. kill you. I can completely understand the common mistakes my freshmen club mates make, but to read mistakes made from a junior high school student is something else. I can understand why people make spelling errors, even I make spelling errors, but what I don't understand is that why would someone, as old as a junior high school student, misuse the wrong tenses of verb.

Here's a tip: If it doesn't sound right, make another sentence, use a different word or change the verb's tense.

God forgive me for being such a bitch.